It’s been a but since I’ve written anything here. Things have been going okay since my last post though, not much to report, other than my frustrations around sleep! Which aren’t exactly new, just..different? Maybe not the most exciting thing to write about, but it can be helpful to get it all out, so here I go!
I have a lot of fatigue during the day, and I’ve always had sleep issues as well. I started seeing a sleep specialist, who has put me on a strict “sleep regime” which includes only being in my bed for a total of 7 hours, wether I sleep enough or not. I also have to stop doing anything like watching TV or playing on my phone in bed, so I’ve been avoiding my bedroom entirely the last couple of days, which can be a bit hard to do in this tiny apartment of mine, but that’s okay. I do try and get out as much as I can, but feeling this way is making that kinda difficult. The point of all of these new rules is to make me sleep more deeply when I do get to bed. So far it seems to just be making me more exhausted, but I haven’t been doing this for long, only a couple of days. I’m not sure if my body will adjust to it and let me sleep and function a bit better during the day, but I hope so!
He has me doing a few other things as well, like taking tryptophan at night, which is the same amino acid found in turkey that makes everyone sleepy at thanksgiving! Sounds delicious, but really it’s just a couple of horse pills that I have to get down half an hour before bed. I’m hoping that after a few days of this I’ll start to sleep better, and feel some improvement. Even feeling slightly rested when I wake up would be a huge relief! It’s such a crappy feeling to wake up every day feeling like you haven’t slept, and could just lay there forever. I’ve gotten good at ignoring a lot of my symptoms to try and get on with the day, but feeling so wiped out is a bit of a hard one to ignore. Lack of good sleep on top of MS fatigue makes Melissa a..tired girl.
So just thought I would share a bit of my sleep journey… is it a journey? Maybe more of a sleep walk… I’m not sure, I’m too tired ;)